The rubber meets the road...

Today at 12:39 pm I called to check on what time Evelyn's next feeding might be, as I was planning on going up to give her a bath before hand (her cord fell off on Tuesday!). The nurse asked if I had heard from the Neonatologist yet. Nope, why what's up. "She has a new plan she wants to run by you, so expect a call any time."

I hung up and my heart sank a little, I knew the plan, the doctor had been commenting about it all week, but kept saying that she didn't feel like it was necessary, "It's just going to be a few more days," is what she had been saying all week. Today, she didn't need to call me and tell me, I knew what she was going to say. I even talked to Scott at 12:53 pm and told him what she was going to say.

Evelyn is coming home...on oxygen with a pulse ox monitor :)

Finally, after waiting impatiently at home in my rocking chair at 1:50 pm she called. I was right, we have a new care plan.

Evelyn is coming home...on oxygen with a pulse ox monitor

She told me that Evelyn is doing very well and that she just needs a tiny amount of oxygen 0.02L of flow. Mathematically (not taking into account the % of oxygen), this is 100 times less than what she started out with. They can't even set the machine to give her a smaller amount of flow of oxygen. However, this small amount is still necessary and the doctor feels like Evelyn should come home, be in her natural enviornment and get into a routine. We will follow up with a pediatrician at the hospital and then transfer to our pediatrician after Evelyn is weined off of the oxygen completely. If the equipment comes in today (which it probably will), we will be trained tomorrow at the hospital, stay overnight at the hospital, and come home Sunday. If the equipment doesn't come in today, she will come home on Tuesday.

I hung up immediately called Scott, crying, of course. Once again, he was my rock :) Reassuring me that it will be ok and that we can do this together.

My mind is racing:

• am I going to be tied to her room?
• is it portable?
• how big are the machines and oxygen?
• do I need a family member to come and stay with us or is it better to be on our own?
• where are these darn ants in my house coming from? gotta get rid of them...

My mind is thankful:

• We are both CPR certified (as of last night)
• At least she is coming home on a pulse ox monitor so we will know when her pulse ox goes down and we will be able to help her
• Our Sunday School and other friends have graciously been providing meals and time to help us out
• We have prayer warriors all over the country!
• I think I have everything we need...think!

So, this is where the rubber meets the road. It's official we are going to be "real parents!" Our baby girl is going to be home for us to love on, cherrish, and support. I never dreamed or imagined this would  be my story and it definately wasn't in my "plan."

"Give thanks in everything,
for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus."

1 Thessalonians 5:18

When I am afraid,
I will trust in You.

In God, whose word I praise,

in God I trust;

I will not fear.

What can man do to me?

Psalm 56:3-4